Unbreakable

                  Unbreakable

Trapped in a generation of social terrorization

Where thousands of hearts seek rehabilitation

The halls are filled with the sound of gossip popping like machine guns

And the immature destroy the naive- everyone’s favorite rerun

Who would have guessed teenagers were so temperamental?

Unable to distinguish the innocent from the detrimental

This is a generation of false love, and lost hope

But what else is there possibly to do but cope

Sadly this option may go unaware

There is a tendency to cause destruction without a single care

Some have seeked a permanent vacation

While the value of inner beauty lacks due to the obsession with decoration

Society grasps the minds’ of the young without freeing

Why does this generation place labels upon human beings?

But there is a way out of such misery

It is to create a new code of chivalry

Although slowly deteriorating on the inside

With a smile so misapplied

I compute strength from the hatred lingering in these hallways

For the time will come when I can truly say

This cruel generation has not broken me

And with the fulfillment of joy to survive

It is but hope that has kept me alive

~A.G

World of Immaturity

This is a cruel word, some people will break your heart and not have a care in the world, that's just life. But, it is not your fault. They are just immature and cannot see what's in front of them. Always think highly of yourself, preserve your pride and self respect. Being played and lied to is one of the worst feelings, i know. Girls that are faithful, smart and truly care about their boyfriends are portrayed as boring and often are unappreciated or left for something easy or for what seems more "fun" at the moment. He will come back once he realizes you were what he needed, but it may be too late. Some girls do all the right things, remain loyal encourage, love and support their boyfriends to the fullest, but get cheated on or unappreciated, and why? One word; immaturity. It can be discouraging when you are a great girl but still get screwed over, and you might want to give up on relationships and love. But we are all so young and will have many more chances at love. Never let these immature guys bring you down, because you're so much better than that. There are good guys out there, trust me. God has saved you from the wrong person. Everything happens for a reason. Which is a lesson that I've learned. No matter who comes in and out of my life I am not changing who i am, i will always be a kind person and it is only immature people that take advantage of the ones who truly care for them. If someone is playing with your heart when you are being loyal to them, its clear they are immature, do not waste your time. Remember that this is only highschool and you will have so much time to find the right person for you, do not give up on future relationships. There are some mature guys in high school, that will treat you right, you just have to be patient, the right guy will come and at the right time. To all the loyal girls out there, continue to do what you do, i promise one day someone will appreciate it. 

Letting go of someone who's hurting you

You cannot hold onto someone who is hurting you, you deserve so much better, you deserve to be happy. Never settle for less than you deserve. There's a lot of boys that are lucky enough to have a good faithful girl but they take that for granted and are too blind to see what's right in front of them. Notice i said "boys" not men. You may feel like you do so much for someone and they just don't do the same for you in return. It hurts to feel unappreciated or unimportant. But when you feel that way you should let him know and if he doesn't respond or try to make a change then that's when you need to leave. Never let a guy think that you won't leave him because he'll just keep doing the same things, thinking that you will stay no matter what because of the love you have for him. But they say if you really love something set it free, right? That's what you have to do, and it won't be easy, but you can do it. If someone is causing you more pain than happiness lately or you feel like you deserve more, then it's time to move on! This can be an excruciating process so make sure you have a support system around you like friends and family. It's going to be difficult deleting him from your mind at first so start with deleting all the pictures you have with him or pictures that remind you of him. Second, delete his number. If he texts you try not to respond, any communication with him might cause you to second guess your decision on leaving when you know he doesn't deserve another chance. Do not get involved with him again unless you are sure he's willing to change, especially if you've given him multiple chances before. Third, anything that reminds you of him has to go, if you still love him then you must remember that some people can only stay in your heart, not in your life. He's hurting you and you deserve better, never become so desperate for love or desperate for someone that you settle for less than you deserve. You are worthy of love and should be treated like a queen, nothing less. As teenagers we are just in love with the idea of love so we'll settle for anything which is why you see girls putting up with their boyfriends treating them badly, because they believe it's "love". We have so much time to find the right person. Seriously, we have our whole lives ahead of us. Yes, you are going to miss the person who hurt you, even though you know he's bad for you, that's just how it works. Our mind's tell us one thing and our hearts tell us another and it can be difficult to make a decision. But, sooner or later you will find someone, and when the guy who hurt you sees you being happy with him, he's going to regret not treating you right. Someone else will do the things he never did. One day this will all be worth it and things will fall together and finally make sense. Someone will enter your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else. Just be patient and keep your head held high, remember that you deserve the best, nothing less. Let go of what's hurting you. 

Loving yourself / Gaining confidence

In middle school i had no self confidence once so ever. Some people don't understand why girls get so insecure, but it mainly has to do with not feeling good enough. Somedays I used to look in the mirror and just point out everything that i saw wrong with me, my mistake was that i didn't see everything i liked about myself. Starting in 9th grade my confidence shot up, i just learned to love myself instead of tearing myself down. Now i'm the most confident I've ever been, i'm not conceited but i definitely love myself. I've had days where i hated myself and sometimes i still get insecure, but i've learned ways to get through that. Every teenage girl is bound to have insecurities, it's completely normal. Whether you are insecure about your weight, your face or even your personality, there are ways to learn how to love yourself. Once you learn to love yourself you will be comfortable in your own skin. Teenage girls are insecure due to the fear of being judged by society and their pressure to be perfect. You should always stay true to who you are. You shouldn't have to try to be perfect, because you're already perfect in your own way somehow. Never compare yourself to anyone else, other girls are pretty in their own way, just as well as you are yourself. Seeing models in magazines that wear a size 0 and seem to have flawless faces can sometimes make you feel less of yourself. You might have the urge to compare yourself to them and believe that that's what you need to look like in order to be perfect. But who you are is just fine. You've got to learn to accept who you are. We all have flaws but we should learn to love them. If you ever feel insecure just look your favorite picture of yourself, or point out something you like about yourself, instead of focusing on the negative things. Instead of tearing yourself down, look in the mirror, smile and give yourself a compliment. If there is something about yourself that you want to change then that's fine, whether it is your weight or maybe it's the way you interact with others. If it makes you happy and you believe that it will benefit you overall, then that's okay. But there's a difference between switching up your style or appearance and pretending to be someone you're not. If you want to change your look then make sure it's for you, no one else. Do it because YOU want to, not because you think people will like you more because of it. No one should tell you who you should be, or make you feel like who you are isn't good enough. I know sometimes it's hard to follow your heart, but you'll get there. 

Dealing with learned helplessness

My heart was shattered and i had to pick up all the pieces alone. I'm petrified of giving away my heart, letting someone into my mind and soul and taking the risk of getting hurt again. I get so insecure that the thoughts in the back of my head reflecting my learned helplessness rummage uncontrollably. I shouldn't be this paranoid. I've built up walls around my heart and I am trying so hard to tear them down. I want to find a safe place to fall but I can't do that when I portray every guy as a villain. Sometimes we all feel this way, If you're anything like me, here's my advice to you. You should never feel like there isn't anyone out there for you because there is, maybe you just haven't met them yet or maybe they're in your life right now but you just haven't noticed them. If you're having trouble finding a good guy, you should never lose hope. Just remember that you don't need to look for love, because most likely, love will find you. You don't always need a guy to feel loved, you can find love right now within other things, like yourself, your family, a sport or an activity, and that will keep you busy and happy, then sooner or later, when you least expect you'll meet someone. Focus on yourself right now, always love yourself first because that is what's most important. If you are not aware of the term "learned helplessness" it is when you are so used to something bad happing to you, you avoid it because you're afraid it's going to happen again.  Not everyone is going to hurt you. I know getting in a new relationship can be traumatizing but just keep a positive attitude. Although you've been hurt once before, or maybe even repeatedly, someone is going to enter your life and make you forget your heart was ever broken. When you meet someone, always remember that expecting things to go wrong, is not the way to make things go right. If a guy is treating you right, enjoy it, do not jump to conclusions of the relationship being "too good to be true" just because of your past. Keep your head held high, because you're beautiful and worthy to be loved.

Ignore the hate

In today's society everyone feels the need to judge one another, whether they know you or not. Just because you heard does not mean you know. Those that judge you do not often realize that you don't need to live by their rules. How you chose to live your life is up to you. But nowadays everyone wants to control people's lives and constantly critic what they are doing as if they have the slightest idea of what that person could be going through. Maybe they've seen you in school or they follow you on social media, but does that mean they really know you? Not at all. There will always be a difference between what people think of you vs. who you really are. Seeing is decieving. We all have things about us that make us unique and beautiful in our own way, as well as what we've been through that has shaped us into who we are now. So when someone judges you its often because they have no clue about what you are battling personally or they base who they think you are off of what they heard about you. People will automatically assume they know you and feel the need to need say something cruel. It sucks that society is so judgemental. But truth is, you are always going to be criticized so you might as well do what you love. The best way to ignore the hate and judgement is to just remember who you are, stay true to yourself. What people say about you does not define who you are as a person. You are defined by your character, thoughts and your views. Never let what others say define you. The things that people say about you right now, are not going to matter in five years. God is preparing you for greater things, there is far more to life than what you are feeling right now. 

Overcoming heartbreaks

Have you ever loved someone so much you were willing to do anything just to make them happy? I have. I was so in love, everytime i saw him my heart raced, i was left speechless whenever i looked into his eyes. I've never felt such a way about anyone, ever. I trusted him with my heart and soul. He meant the world to me. But he turned out to not be the person i thought he was. He betrayed me, took advantage, started rumors about me and broke my heart into a million pieces. I've never felt so unloved and worthless in my entire life. My heart was already shattered and he made everything worse. Just the thought of how he used me, left me and ruined my reputation like i was absolutely nothing to him, made me not want to live anymore. I couldn't walk into the hallway without being pointed or stared at. At age 15 i was already having suicide thoughts. I cried myself to sleep, night after night wishing i wouldn't wake up the next morning. For 7 months i never let go of him. He was all i thought about. I refused to give up on him because i was still infatuated with the person i thought he was. He has scarred me in so manys, but he has not broken me. Once i realized that he was completely wrong for me i found the strength to let go of him, it wasn't easy but i did it. After i moved on, everything got better. I learned that I am strong enough to conquer anything, and anyone. He can never hurt me again. If you have ever got your heart broken you must understand that things will be ok in the end. Everything happens for a reason, and everyone who is put it in your life was put there for a reason. It is not your fault for being hurt. It's bound to happen to every teenage girl, that's just life. Hang in there, surround yourself with people who love and care about you and things will soon get better. It's astonishing how short of a time it takes for good things to happen.